Take It All. Ice Skating Included.

Ice skating? At this time in the semester? You’ve got to be kidding me. Am I the only one who has finals quickly approaching? I’m pretty sure I have more papers to write, more quizzes and tests to take, more presentations and debates to do, and more final exams in the next two weeks then I did my entire freshman year. So ice skating is definitely out of the question. Besides, it's cold outside.

I’m tired. I’m having a hard time figuring out some food allergy stuff. I just want to be done with this semester. I miss a Robert and Trina. And I miss the joy and peace I started the semester with.

The questions and doubts I have won’t leave when I finish my last final. The things I’m struggling with won’t disappear when I board the plane to California. The things hurting me won’t be healed when I’m done packing. My life doesn’t end when the semester does. Except for the schoolwork, it all comes with me. I think somewhere deep inside I’m hoping that it just won’t - that this time will be the exception.

Take it All

by Third Day

All the promises I've broken

All the times I've let you down

You've forgot them

But still I hold on to the pain that makes me drown

Now I'm ready to let it go

To give it away

Take it all

'Cause I can't take it any longer

All I have, I can't make it on my own

Take the first, take the last

Take the good and take the rest

Here I am, all I have

Take it all

All the roads that lie before me

All the struggles I go through

Every second I'm reminded

That it all belongs to you

Now I'm ready

To let it go

To give it away

Ever since I died to myself

You gave a better life to me

I give you my finest moment

I give you the last breath I breathe

When my heart aches it takes me a while to realize it's aching for Him, to know more of Him. Maybe I should leave notes for myself. Once again, it comes down to surrendering my life - my daily battle that I just can't seem to win.